Includes bibliographical references.

Chapter 1 We cannot control God's hand
Part 1 How Could God Let This Happen?
Chapter 2 Paradise and the paradox of suffering
Chapter 3 The danger of living with a God I can't figure out
Chapter 4 This isn't what I signed up for
Chapter 5 What I always feared
Chapter 6 Trusting God when the hope of heaven is all you have (or want)
Part 2 Can I Ever Trust God Again?
Chapter 7 Getting honest with God
Chapter 8 Must God seem good for me to believe?
Chapter 9 The promise that never fails (no matter how dark the day may be)
Chapter 10 Why doesn't God do something (if He can)
Chapter 11 Break point
Chapter 12 Cruel
Part 3 Could God Have Some Purpose Behind All I've Been Through?
Chapter 13 Where my future lies
Chapter 14 Weaned from the world
Chapter 15 Discovering God in the middle of my pain
Chapter 16 Does the rock enjoy being chiseled into a statue?
Chapter 17 A purpose that goes far beyond this world
Chapter 28 Toe-to-toe with our greatest enemy
Part 4 How Can My Life Go On From Here?
Chapter 19 No answer but God
Chapter 20 I still want answers
Chapter 21 The ultimate step forward
Chapter 22 The final chapter (in more ways than one)